starting to see the christmas ferns get all their lights on around the castle today. this is the best season, winter is just so awesome!

it's been the most beautiful fall/turning into winter this year than i can ever remember. im enjoying it.

i feel good, like im back on another high. i want it to last please! maybe i just needed to adjust or something? i feel kind of ridiculously happy and i keep smiling and shit and...i just want to make the most of this one year i get with everyone coz they're awesome and i love them a bit and stuff. hah sappy much?

the scales ran out of battery, i forgot if i said this. probably. hah its pretty ironic. i'm trying to just forget numbers exist right now. i have these new rules im kind of sticking to, just to feel safe. i'm never going to be thin but i want to try and stay happy.

today was ok: soup & fruit (like 350 max?) then dinner was this chicken stuff with yummy yummy vegetables and a piece of lemon tarte. it was VERY lemon. he gave me whipped cream but like the tiniest teaspoonfull! hah!

work is ok but i'm doing 4 nights in a row then an early sat morning. hah im going to feel like death, im already shattered, but on balance at least the eac essay is over and i'm only working thursday next week! whoo!

i want to get all pro plussed up on thursday and get drunk. just want to be drunk and happy and have fun and not care. i dont get to do that enough. i'll be eating dinner at work that day but otherwise it'd be nice to be empty and stuff. im ok today but im just trying to stay relaxed and happy about everything.

I'm probably pretty close to 2000 today, i walked to uni then home from work though so i don't feel too bad. and anyways, theres always room for improvement!

xoxo