stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid bitch.

yeah i know drunk posting. my arm is the most disgusting mess. felt so good. god i seen myself after i showered today....it was so fucking disgusting. felt so much of a relief to cut. why do i have to be such a fucking pathetic failure?
i reckon i had like 1500 cal? god ffs im such a joke. theres blood everywhere and everyone is just disgusted. lol if u think living with it is bad try being the one doing it.
doesnt hurt enough.

its not some sort of relapse its just the fucking truth. thats what i hate. pathetic stupid bitch...why do you still want the same stuff as bad?

its gonna suck when i wake up tomoz. least i dont feel nausious any more. ironic a bit. fuck this shit i hate this. same bullshit over and over.


hmmm i dont wanna go to bed. means i have to get up and feel like a retard in 8 hours. god i am though.