i eat alot today and i haven't even gotten home yet.
cereal, banana (300)
Croque Monsieur (485)
chocolate bar (95)
steak pie & veg
irish cream cheesecake (?)

I hate going home i just eat everything no matter what. Craving cake so badly it's insane. I know i had cheesecake but hey it's just one of those nights. I'll feel better later. Tomorrow night when i've had enough food to last me a lifetime.

I can't get below 120. I'm so fucking weak. I wish my thighs didn't touch. I know it doesnt solve my problems but sometimes the only thing that gives me comfort is when i can feel my bones. I need to learn to love my bones again. I know my moods are ridiculous when i even hate my bones you know?

xoxo