still need to revise for EAC. (jap is getting written off i dont care)
wrapped most of the presents. just a game, two boxes and ribbons to do. oh and cards! eek!
mum: "what did you eat today?" (paranoia much chloe?)

i'm gonna call it at...900? just wanna get d. coke on the way home and crash out all night. SO got to revise though. will finish dexter while i do.

Boss has given me actual work to do, better go be good employee.

Wish i didn't always have to lose weight.

Fantasizing about cutting my face again. had insomnia so i lay all night thinking about hurting myself with the scissors i was using to wrap everyones presents.

i should be trying harder to be normal.

really worried about gaining in the next two weeks. want bones for cobra on 29th jan.

So i had an apple when i got home last night. it was so fucking good. I was literally wrecked but i sat in sandies room for an hour and annoyed the fuck out of her caught up with her.
Was the really nice kind of weak today. Barely felt sick at all. Got dressed and came down to princes street (had an apple on the way) then got a few presents and had a soy chai latte (last time i'll do that for a while)
Dinner at work was roast leg of lamb in marsala jus (type of red wine?) and potatoes. 1500?

Theres a huge box of chocolates for reception sitting in the office. i've been good so far. My last apple is in the bottom of my bag, im not hungry though i don't actually want it.

uchiage tomorrow, probably going to be up and out early to collect all the sushi from the restraunt. I'll try and be good tomorrow. Today hasn't been all that great tbh, it'll probably be easy enough to improve on it.

fuck. still haven't fucking well studied. I'm going to try and do an hour now.

friends from home want to go to pizza hut next week. im gonna try and make sure i have calories in my phone. its so shit because im at home for that weekend. Seriously just thinknig about how much i'll probably eat is making me want to cry. fucks sake.

on the plus side: apart from sweets & wrapping paper, i've got everyones presents!!! yeyness!!!

xoxo