So today = last day of september. It's maybe just over 12 weeks till christmas. I decided last night that (since everyone else was doing it) i'd reach my goal by christmas. A stone by christmas everyone? Ganbatte ne! (lol)

125.2 this morning.           Started of month: 125.6.           Highest this month: 129.2 lowest: 123.2

I hate being stuck around the same fucking numbers all the fucking time! i can't just starve to 111 though. Well i can, easily, but then i'd just force my body into destroying all the muscle mass i've built up this summer and i'd kill myself if all that suffering was for nothing.

I'm not overly upset at myself. Like i ALMOST have a complete space between my thighs! ! ! hopefully doing alot more on the crosstrainer of evil will help me out with this, especially since i'm not walking to and from work every day any more. that's like 40 minutes of brisk walking gone. Boo hiss boo.

Ok other positives this month? My legs are doing that weird thing where they lose weight upwards. Makes them a weird shape till it evens out. On the major plus side though i think my ankles are FINALLY going. I have this weird obsession about having fat ankles. don't ask, IDEK. So yeah i'll be happy when i can actually see the bones there. It's weird but i get jealous if i'm out walking and i can see the tendons at the back of someones ankle. Seriously though i have like a layer of fucking fat there like i don't even know!

So october! I swear to god i will FINALLY get a complete space between my goddamn thighs. My hip bones seem a little better, its a little flatter at the front so i can see them a bit more. Can't see my ribs at all. Boo. Hoping october brings more bones though! I feel the universe owes me bones in time for halloween ne!

Also if i can get new skinny jeans for the gig: win!

xoxo