1700 WITHOUT counting dinner (i dont even want to look it up im ready to die as it is)

i feel like i can't even trust myself to fucking let myself out the house why can i just NOT FUCKING BEHAVE?!?!

chloe seriously if you don't stop your going to have to find some serious way of fucking punishing yourself.

theres no fucking WAY i can let this go on. jesus fucking christ i can't believe this is how i fucking well act! im so fucking angry/dissapointed/ashamed/furious/disgusted with my entire existance

seriously if i eat again before dinner tomorrow i'm going to find a way to hurt myself somehow. i cant let myself off with this.

how can i go out tomorrow now? god stupid fat whore. i cant actually still stuff myself into skinny jeans and go spend a whole night drinking and most probably binging. like wtf? theres no way im going out now.

stupid fucking BITCH