i disgust myself. i wish i could break all the mirrors in the house.

lj secret posts:
"i'm not as selfish as you think"
"i love life"
"i can't wait to graduate but i'm terrified"
"even though it's been pretty crappy lately, i love life"
"i feel like a failure if i don't do something self destructive every day" 
"i intend to live these years to the fullest"
"this will be the best year of my life"
"i'm not in denial anymore...I am bulimic"
"i base too much of my self-worth on how well i do in school"

no one gets why i love that comm.  When i feel really dissconnected from people (when do i not huh?) then it makes me feel like its ok, like i get it. If i know that all these random people out there have these secrets then i don't feel so isolated. It's stupid but it calms me down.

Some secrets are more relavent to our lives than others.


Todays one of those days i want to run away. I'm going to try and make myself study instead.