So we're getting dinner at macdonalds tonight on the way out. Obviously i'm trying to be reasonable and not let it freak me out.

I'm failing. I can't really get off without eating if my mum is there. I don't want to give anyone any ammunition to use against me. I don't want them to shout at me and call me "ana". stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid.

There are some things that outsiders just really don't understand. I don't blame them but it upsets me when people are so insensitive. You can't comment on someone elses food habits. You just fucking can't. You can't fucking judge someone for how/what they eat. It's not funny or smart or "not a big deal". it pisses me off so fucking much.

I feel like i have no fucking privacy because all we do is watch each other eat. I hate when people think it's ok to slag me off for not eating in public. i feel so fucking moritified. I swear if it keeps happening then i'm just going to start skipping meals together. Fuck this socialising shit. It's not worth feeling like a fucking loser for the rest of the day after.

Jesus 330 calories in medium fries....i don't even care that much about the numbers it's the gross shit that i have to eat! god seriously why do people want junk like that in their systems. do they fucking LIKE the idea of grease and fat?!!?! seriously i DONT GET IT!!!!!!!

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. ok whatever i'll be ok. i'll just be extra violent with the emokids tonight. Burn off that gross fat. Ew ew ew ew. It'll be fine it's just for tonight. I'll be good.

Tonight is going to be perfect. I refuse to let anything ruin tonight.
xoxo